Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Problems.. Inspiration.. Something New I learn About Myself.

Each and everyone of us have their own problems and secrets that they have to cope with.

Some handle their problems better than others, some others the other way around.

There are others out there who already encountered major problems in life.

Whereas there is also others out there still living care-freely without any worries whatsoever. Little do they know that there is a very high possibility that there might be some "problems" instilled for them in the future. Fate works in a very mysterious way, nothing is certain.

When we say the word "problem", I am pretty sure each and everyone of us have a problem. The FIRST question that should come to mind is not HOW the problem should be SOLVED. But more importantly, HOW does one ENDURES and HANDLE their problem to begin with. We should know by now that a "problem" is not actually a "problem" if the solution for the "problem" can be thought of so easily. Obviously, a "problem" should be clearly defined as a "problem" when the solution for the problem is never certain. As you can see, "problem" can only be solved with the help of "time".

Typically, when one encounters a problem... A clear solution does not exist. Instead, the only option people have most of the time is to "wait and see how it goes".

Why are problems so damn annoying? Psychologically speaking, one would say that it has got to do with our core of thinking itself, our mind. Our brain consists of complex systems which are intertwined with one another. These sets of complex systems beautifully merges with one another to make everything work under a single system. One thing about Psychology is that different perspectives always arises and what makes them interesting is none of them are actually absolute. No one can clearly set the line and say which one is completely correct and wrong. So what we do is we basically refer to all these different perspectives to make sense of the human system........ I have wondered too far off here, lets take a few step backwards now. Why are problems so damn annoying? Some psychologist believes that our brain is always working 24 hours a day. It continually works even when we are asleep. In other words, our brain is like a super computer.

Now, imagine what happens when our brain encounters a problem? Obviously our brain will literally work its ass off to figure out the solution. Usually when it comes to mathematical problems for example, it puts a very high amount of pressure towards our brain when we are figuring out the answers to the problem. However, when the solution is gained, the pressure slowly fades away. Why? Because the brain is finally relieved from figuring out the solution. The longer the brain has to figure out a solution, the more the pressure adds up.... But... What happens if the problem couldn't be solved through thinking alone? Well, some say that we could simply think about something else instead and ignore it. However, some psychologist says that no matter how deliberately we try to ignore the subject matter, the brain will always unconsciously figure out the solution towards the problem even though the solution does not exist. Therefore, more and more pressure is built up as the time passes by. In other words, we will still feel pressured no matter how much we try to hide it.

Now, different people cope with their problems differently. This should be our main focus. Why?Because this in a way, will define who we are. Why is this so important? Well, if I have to point it out myself, there are many well-known people out there who is admired just because of how they handled their dark past. These people are admired because of how they overcome the problems many others fail to overcome themselves. These people inspires those out there... They became others source of inspiration...They are the very existence that proves problems can be solved no matter how ridiculous it may seem... People are relieved to know when their problems are insignificant when compared to some of those out there in the world.

Lets take people around you for example. I am pretty sure you have seen loads of different type of people so far. Some are the quiet type, some are easy going, some are simply irritating. Now when it comes to problem, we can see how these people cope up with theirs. Some keep their problems to their selves and managed to handle their problems professionally. Some others fail to keep their cool and instead become an over-dramatic queen who tells the whole world about his/her "problems" as if she/he is the only unlucky being on the face of this earth. Believe me when I say there are others out there who has problems that are unimaginably cruel. But still, some of the people out there who has to confront with this overwhelming "problems" somehow managed to keep their "cool". How is this possible?

Not many people are capable of keeping their cool when they are facing problems of their own. Most of the time they can't handle it and what they do is they try to find ways to help them feel fine such as expressing to their loved ones about how they feel deep inside. But not everyone does so in a positive way. There are times in our life when we see people trying to escape the harshness of reality by exercising, playing, hanging out, smoking, fighting, causing more problems and such.

Do you guys now see why I mentioned previously that our ways of confronting our problems will define who we are? People will always remain being who they are as long as no other events occur that will change it otherwise. There are sayings that simply goes like "You will know who that person truly is when he/she is facing problems". How come? Well, I believe that when people are facing problems, these problems will have a high chance of shaping the person's future way of thinking and behavior.

Let's just give a typical example to understand this better. Most of the time we can see girls/boys at our young age complaining about the ones they are in love with. How do they handle the outcome when they found out their "loved" ones cheat on them or dump them for reasons they can't accept? On facebook for example, we see girls posting status updates such as "All guys are the same! They never understand us! They are liars! They are a lying piece of sh-". Sadly, this also goes the same to the dudes.... We can see some dudes who says "Every girls are the same. I might as well stay single. Bros before Hoes~!"......... Which is really really really quite SAD if you ask me.

Because of the personal problem they faced, most of them will generate a stereotype form of thinking. I'd say this is natural as the brain is simply creating a defensive mechanism that will prevent the host from repeating the same mistake. However, it is good to know that knowledge overcomes our stereotypes.

So where were we? Oh yeah. Problems -> Stereotypes -> Alters belief and action -> Slightly/moderately/highly changes who we are. Of course, this is only just an example. There are many other different ways "problems" can change our personality.

To keep things short and meaningful, I would just like to say be careful and be smart on how you handle your problems. Bear in mind that some problems could not be solved with your own power alone and that some problems can only be solved due time. We should not let problems degrade our qualities as a respectful human being we ought to be.

The reason I am writing this post is basically to portray a bit of my problems without actually telling what the problem actually is. I am not the type of person who likes to share my problems with other people, and most of the time even if I accidentally or intentionally shared the story of my problems to others, I usually end up regretting it. Some times, problems should be kept to ourselves, and how to handle such problems is entirely up to you (sometimes.. but most of the time in my case I guess).

How do you perceive your own character? There are times when I noticed my character is a bit messed up seeing how my likes and dislikes can clash with one another depending on the situation. I have loads of negative views and perceptions that I have in mind but what I usually let out for people to see are only the nice ones. Usually I curse a lot, I curse so much that people around me sometimes feel uncomfortable due to the negative energy I bring out (I made this assumption when I notice how people's facial expression started to slowly change, and most of the time when this happens I quickly decided to shut my mouth seeing how negative it is being). Well, I guess that is most probably my fault for hanging out with the wrong peers in school. Luckily I managed to restrain myself and then slowly change myself from being that kind of person.

I find it truly hard to define myself as I believe in a few principles that I have set up in my mind but I find it difficult to physically apply such principles.

I noticed that previously I usually had this problem on how to clearly define myself properly most of the time I find my personality contradicting.

However, that is no longer the case. Spending most of my time away from UIA, I managed to do what I love most which is by having my own free space of spending my own sweet time internally speaking intrapersonally with my own self. By having time to do so, I have noticed some things about me that never actually changed for a very long time...

I am easily inspired... But it is hard for me to stay inspired for a very long time due to the fact that I usually find out something that I am disappointed with sooner or later towards that specific thing/person that I am inspired with...

I have my own beliefs and understandings on general matters but I don't usually express it to people unless necessary.

I don't like communicating with new people as I do not like my character to be judged. People usually judge a person and adapt to that person by their understanding of others character from their first confrontation with one another. In other words, this is also known as our first impression. Most of the time, people firstly try to have some conversations with the new person. Once they have gathered the necessary information of that person, later they will reorganize that information and analyze it for future reference. What people usually do first is to decide whether or not should they befriend with such person on the first place. If so, they will decide to ignore future confrontation or add more confrontation with that specific person according to the decision made.

People often think that by frequently meeting with the person over and over again, they might slowly and surely start to learn more about the person itself and then from there they can adapt themselves better to communicate with that person. But people should bear in mind that no matter how many times you meet that person over and over again, if that person itself decides to put up a fake front and conceal their true self each and every time they confront with one another, they can never truly learn more about the person they are talking to.

One more significant thing that I learned about myself is that I am not that mysterious nor am I that difficult to be understood. Its just that I refuse to let people into my life for reasons I have yet to discover. I don't like being misjudged but then again I purposely put up a fake front each and every time a confrontation is made. I guess this is just a bad habit of mine that I haven't yet changed and I myself am confused whether or not this habit of mine should be changed in the first place.

I admit that I am an antisocial type of person, but I can easily have a conversation with people if I want to. But the problem is, I don't want to. I only have conversations with people and build friendship in situations that seems necessary.

Other than that, the people I have approached so far are only people that I am personally interested with and most of them are kind and interesting people that I am interested to make friends with. I noticed this I am very greedy in terms of choosing who I befriend with. But so far, I cant complain since I like each and everyone who is in my circle of friends.

Today I have learned more about myself. I am not so "self-contradicting" and "difficult" as I previously and frequently say I am. I am only "self-contradicting" because I purposely wear a mask when I confront people whom I am not comfortable with. But I have noticed that this mask can easily be shaken if I am confronted with people who appear to be kind in my point of view. I have this thing about me and I guess I simply like to have conversations with those who are kind. Also, I am only "difficult" because I choose to be that way. When I move away the haze and clouds that disturbs my view, who I am and what I am is actually very clear in front of me. No more confusion, no more contradiction, no more difficulties. I am actually quite a simple person hohoho~


I am the type of person who is easily inspired by people around me and most of the time these people doesn't even notice how inspiring they actually are. Be it in physical aspects or in other areas that involves creativity and the power of language and writing, I am easily inspired by all.

Most of the time, these people I am inspired with have their very own sets of belief and criteria that they have set in mind. Rather than what they have accomplished and what they are capable of accomplishing, the way of thinking they have in their mind is what makes them incredibly amazing to begin with.

Parkour/Tricking/Freerunning for example... Some simply look at them like idiots who never considered the risk and consequences you get when you fall. But this perception is far from true. These people have beliefs set in their mind that will set you people on awe. By entering their way of thinking and perception they have in life, you will notice how ridiculously amazing their perceptions actually are. This perception of theirs are most of the time ILLOGICAL to have in mind with out rational thinking alone.... but TRUE. It is true that no matter how many times we train ourselves to jump from a 2nd storey building, it does not make the jump any shorter. It is true that training gives us strength. But if we are really simply talking about strength alone, wouldn't that mean each and every highly active basketball players can do what we do and do it better in the first place? Technique? So do you guys really believe that technique is ALL there is to it? Does that mean by learning the technique alone, these basketball players can easily jump from the 2nd storey building like tracheurs do?

Technique is the key to unlock the door.

Strength is required to twist the door knob.

But both of these are not the ones required to push the door open.

The thing that we need to have in order to push the door open, is self confidence.

What mostly changes overtime through practice is not our strength or technique, but mostly our self confidence. Why am I talking about this? Because I notice that some amazing athletes in the world of freerunning are soooo CRAZY to an extent that their self-confidence are absurdly illogical to be applied to normal people.. But this set of thinking is absolutely true when we actually spend some time to think about it.

Of course no matter how much we train ourselves, the jump that we are going to do from the 2nd storey building will not be any shorter. What changes are simply our self confidence. No matter how strong we really are and no matter how much technique we have mastered in our mind... By the time we are doing it, if we do not have any self confidence, shit happens. That is why most tracheurs encounter injury most of the time. May it be a difficult move or a simple move, most of the time the most serious injury inflicted to tracheurs are from SIMPLE MOVES. It is almost stupid if we actually spend our time to think about it. Just because we lack self confidence, we did not make that extra jump, we did not keep our proper form, and thus we fail and land miserably on the ground. This would all end very differently and beautifully if we simply had self confidence to begin with.

Also there are other types of people whom I am easily inspired with. Most of the time I am easily inspired by those who can easily express themselves. I am inspired by those who can express themselves by easily typing sooooooooooo loooooooooong but yet their way of writing managed to catch and keep the interest of the readers all the way to then end. I am inspired by those who can easily express themselves and make themselves look stupid in front of the camera but in an entertaining way rather than "irritating". They know the lines between being too excessive in showing expressions and being too dull in not showing enough expressions.

Most of the time, I am usually inspired by those who hold close to a certain principle that sounds soooo incredible to an extent that holding to that principle alone shows how amazing that person actually is.

Okay, I guess that is enough for now. Let me just share to you guys what I have done so far during this holiday.

-Joined Sejuta Impian and managed to get rm20k
-Joined Axn Big Challenge Kuala Lumpur and got into the top 10.
-Joined Sasuke Malaysia

Until next time. :)


Thursday, June 9, 2011

A Dream To Kill A Satan

I had a dream just now, around 1 hour ago to be more specific... As you know, dream is one of the most unique thing to describe about. Dream can come to you as an inspiration, as a traumatizing experience, as a flashback, as an entertainment, as a story, as a message, and most of the time it doesn't even make sense. I decided to blog about this dream of mine because it felt real... And it so happens that I don't know what else to do to kill time until 10 a.m as I wait for Siddiq to fetch me up for wall climbing (currently 8.30 am).

In this dream of mine, I was on a mission to prevent the reincarnation of a satan by preventing a guy from completing the ritual (stabbing himself). The dream was quite long, so I'll just skip to the ending and spare you the details for example me being trapped in a hall with a possessed demonic woman, I somehow became managed to become invisible to hide from her and quickly sneak myself up to kill the guy who was going to turn into a satan, and as I was doing so the possessed demonic woman was smelling all around the hall to trace me (quite pointless really, at one point she was standing right in front of me sniffing the invisible me but still didn't find out I was actually there).

Okay! So lets move on to the disturbing part of the dream. Afterwards I quickly went out of the hall, I noticed the guy I was supposed to prevent from stabbing himself to complete the ritual to demonized himself (is there such a word as satanized himself?). I quickly sneaked up to him but it turned out I reached him a bit too late when he was already stabbing himself. Being engulfed with fear that he will enter a state of metamorphosis or some sort, I quickly pushed him down, used my sword/knife/machete (not sure) and quickly tried to kill him by literally cutting him into half horizontally as he was screaming in pain. Mind you that it all felt so real and at that time it felt like the most righteous thing to do. At the very last minute, he turned to me with a very evil smile on his face as his facial figure started to change from one person to another (at this stage I already knew I was too late and the end was near). Each time he lets out his small demonic laughter, my effort to cut him into half slowed down and finally I stopped. It was the kind of feeling when you are standing in front of a satan knowing that apocalypse is near.

Then I woke up, and this is what I had in mind... Judgment day, I hope it is still far away.


Tuesday, June 7, 2011

A Curse That Befalls An Angel

Once upon a time, there was once a beautiful angel that lives in the heavens. Angels are well known for their beauty as well as their persistent behavior of not taking any interest in the worldly treasures. Thus such thing as greed, hunger and lust is something an angel would not posses. This one particular angel however is uniquely different from all the others. Not only is this angel unique because the angel is far more beautiful than all the other angels combined, the angel is also unique because of the human characteristics she posses. However, it is also because of this “human characteristics” she has that made her so different from all the others to an extent that the angels no longer hang around with her, or to be more exact, this angel no longer hang around with others as she wanders around alone too much satisfying her own desires.

This angel wanders around our world, seeking for delicious foods from each and every corner she can find. Some might say that her superior beauty came with the curse of having the human characteristics she posses. An angel is of course invisible before the human eyes, therefore it is simply too easy for the angel to go flying wherever she pleases and takes whatever she desires. Is it stealing? Well of course, that’s why some call her human characteristics a curse.

Then comes a day when this angel becomes amazingly fat due to the fact that she ate too much. But still her wings carry her from one location to another searching for food that she could not resist. One day, her wings just snapped as they could no longer support the weight of her body. Without her wings, she simply became a regular human being that now has to walk with her own two feet on world we are living in. Unfortunately, it goes more beyond that. Unto this day, the angels in the heavens still described this event as the worst curse ever befall unto an angel with natural gifts that supersedes others and the reason such curse exist is because of the human characteristics instilled in the angels personality. With her wings gone, she was inflicted with a curse with several effects….

One… She is left with all the desires and characteristics of a human…

Two… Although her body can now be seen by ordinary humans, her beauty is not under the comprehension of normal human beings thus her superior beauty could not be properly understood and appreciated by ordinary humans…

Three… She is cursed with a body that will no longer go fat no matter how much she eats, this curse is to represent the unending desire she previously had when this curse befall unto her…

With these cursed attributes she now has, she is forced to live on the face of this earth. She finally came across a man that somehow had an exceptional perception that allows him to see how beautiful she truly is. She spent the rest of her life with that particular man as she daily fed herself with human foods to survive…

From the perception of angels in the heavens, this curse is indeed overwhelmingly sad, cruel, and unfortunate. Because of this incident, there has not been a single angel who dares set even one foot on the face of the earth any longer. It is indeed a tragic ending for an angel that carries too much gifts, as well as the curse that came along with it…



However, this is simply the perception of those angels in the heavens. What about the perception of the angel that encountered this curse?

Well, from her point of view, it is not a curse at all. Instead, it was a blessing. Not only is she now able to openly enjoy the worldly pleasures that other angels could only dream of, she is now blessed with the best gifts that the human world could possibly offer… That is the ability of loving the one she loves like crazy and being loved back just as much… She now has a person that she can share her feelings with, share her joy with, and share her entire life with… A person that finally understood and appreciate her for who she really is and what she actually is deep inside… The only curse she believed to encounter being a human is most probably love itself, as it is something so addictive that she can no longer live without… The event is indeed a blessing from her point of view… Plus, she can no longer go fat no matter how much she eats. What more can you ask for?


Wednesday, May 25, 2011

I Have A Stalker + Random Posts


I've been noticing this for awhile since a friend of mine Naqib Ahmad told me about it. I was walking in UIA in search of a lecturer when I bumped into him. I don't remember much regarding to what we spoke about but I do remember the conversation we had when he asked me "Ammar, do you have another facebook profile?". I was trying to critically think before answering such a question because I remembered creating a number of fake facebook accounts for gaming purposes (lame, I know...), but then again, none of them are filled with account information or pictures that can be related to me since it is pointless to add any to the temporary fake accounts. So then I said nope. Naqib told me that he found a fake facebook profile by the name of "Ammar Jacob" with my profile picture along with other pictures in the picture album. At first I thought maybe it was a mistake so when I went back to my dorm, I tried to search for it and voila! It actually exists.

The facebook account was set on private so I could not actually see any details about him. If this kind of stuff happen to you, how would you react? In facebook, I noticed some of the girls in UIA actually encountered this problem as well. How did they react to it? One thing for sure, they reacted to it more aggressively then I ever will.

The Girls Reaction:
1. The first thing they do is they spread the information to their friends.
2. Then all of them will post the fake profile link on their wall telling everyone to be cautious of the profile seeing how it is actually fake.
3. They directly contact the account and ask the person to stop doing it. ( I don't know if they insert curse words and threats in the process or not)

So you see, girls from UIA are certainly not the kind of girls you want to mess with. However in my case, I reacted to the situation differently seeing that it is a bit different compared to their cases. You see, at first I tried to investigate a bit about the profile to know the actual motive why that fake profile is created. So I noticed that the name of the profile is "Ammar Jacob", and all of the personal informations are made up to an extent that it has got nothing to do with me. So I thought to myself, "Well, if such a profile does not intend to harm me in any way, then I guess no harm is done".

I don't mind if a person would take away my pictures and do a fake profile or anything. I won't even mind if I have a shy stalker who would go so far as making a fake profile of me (Wow, wouldn't that be awesome? To be admired to such an extent, I must be doing something right then lol), as long as no harmful intention is included of course. So some of my friends actually tried adding the fake profile, and guess what? It seems that the friend request was accepted. That simply means the profile is STILL being used even now. Just days ago, the profile had updated the profile picture by changing another profile picture of me as well. I find this to be AMAZING.. You know why? Because the pictures in his album are actually pictures of me that you can't find on MY facebook or myspace anymore. Why? Because I deleted them almost 2 years ago. So, what does that mean? It means, whoever the person is, he or she had already copied and saved my pictures all the way from 2 YEARS back. Now there are TWO different possibilities:

1. The account was made from 2 YEARS back, and even until NOW the person still UPDATES the profile on facebook and ACCEPTS friend requests.

2. The account was RECENTLY made. But that also means, the person had already SAVED my pictures for TWO LONG YEARS before actually using the
m for the fake account.

Either way, it is still amazing. What is the reason behind the existence of this facebook account? It could be a stalker, but then again I don't think I am the kind of person worth stalking. So the best reasoning I had made so far is that the person is only using my pictures for his personal agenda. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that the way he edit the account actually makes me look like a gay. So in other words, I think the person is actually a gay, and he simply creates a fake facebook profile, but he is too shy to use his own picture, thus he randomly stole my pictures, and then make them his, and then continued pretending to be me to find another gay associates on facebook. Well, that is simply a "maybe" because I seriously don't think I am worth stalking.

I don't care what people do with my pictures, as long as they don't associate that picture directly to me by using my full name and where I study and such. Then that would be blasphemy and false accusations are being made against me. Seeing that no harm is being done by the fake account, I see no reason for me to trouble him/her. Plus, he/she actually went through all the trouble of making a fake account, the least I could do is let him/her be. So I just hope that he/she can enjoy him/herself in anyway possible. I guess that is all I would like to say about this. For those who encounter the same thing, I will only try to advice you this....DON'T ANGER the one who does the fake account of yours directly. This kind of people won't reply to your demand or anger kindly. The least they are capable of is actually causing more trouble. And who knows what they are capable of in real life, you don't know them in real life, but they do know who you are. By threatening this person and cursing him/her directly and such, you are actually putting yourself in danger. I don't think this is far-stretched seeing how dangerous stalkers actually are overseas. I guess thats it!

Recently he changed the profile picture to my shirtless picture which I have deleted since I entered UIA which was (2 years ago). I don't like it.


I decided to browse through my blog to see all my previous posts in an attempt to find out how my writings had improved itself during these past few years. Amazingly.... I find that I haven't improved at all. In fact, I think my style of writing has actually downgraded itself compared to my previous style of writing. A clear difference would certainly be in my attitude towards writing itself. Previously when I was getting ready to write about something, I usually express my views and opinion in a very detailed manner as I perceive that even the minutest details are important. I write in a way as if I am telling my story to a person who is actually wholeheartedly wanting to hear to them with open ears and glittering eyes asking for more. But lately I guess the way I write is something like this "Uhh, guys.. You know.. Lately, this is what I have in mind... So... Uhh.. I just thought about sharing them, so, uhh.... I guess thats it... Laters I guess...". I guess what I am trying to say is, my passion towards writing is gradually decreasing by the day. Previously if I have something I want to write about I would go like "Ahh, I think I'll write about that one tonight. Yes, definitely tonite..". Now if I have something I want to write about I will go like "Ahh, that is certainly worth writing about...Uhh.. Should I? Uhh... I think so... Umm... Nah~".

I recently played a facebook game application called "Zombie Lane". I became the top player for the game. The game includes scores for each time you kill zombies. So my name was basically on top of the chart, globally among millions of other players. But recently I blocked the application seeing that the update for the game is ridiculously slow, playing everyday just to defend my position was rather pointless. Its amazing how many hundreds of people would randomly add you just because your the top of the game, my friend requests maxed out within just 2 day which is (1000 friend requests). My mother told me to add her on fb (NOOOO WAAAYY~) because when she tried to add me, this came out "Ammar Haidhar have too many friends". Lol. People are still adding me daily, so it is simply a waste of my time to ignore the invites seeing how hundreds more will come in daily. Soooo, I'm sorry to say this (not really), but I won't randomly accept anymore people on fb. Currently I have almost 300 messages from random people asking me to accept their friend request. Also, the reason I block the game is because I find that the game is consuming TOO MUCH of my time and also the most IRRITATING part of everything is that my freakin wall is COMPLETELY SPAMMED with the game's notification which is utterly nonsense if you ask me. Everyday I log into my profile and then I see random people posting on my wall "Hey ammar! I just helped with your yard" etc etc. Enough is enough.

Recently we entered Sasuke Malaysia to represent Parkour Malaysia. I am VERY VERY EXCITED to inform you guys the details BUT, the information regarding the competition is confidential due to the fact that it not aired yet on the national television. One thing for sure is that it is awesome and it is indeed one of the greatest feat achieved by the parkour community so far. What do I mean? That's a secret meheheh... (Secret? Not really. I am pretty sure you can find out what happen if you actually google around a bit. As a participant though, I don't have the privilege to offer you the details) :D

ALSO! We initiated the Freerun Challenge on the exact same day it self!! I forgot to mention that the Freerun Challenge and Sasuke Malaysia was held during Hari Belia in Putrajaya. The Freerun Challenge was a complete success!! The location was most of the time, surrounded by spectators as well as tv reporters and individual photographers. Indeed, this year is an awesome year for our Parkour Community! I can list down all the accomplishments we got so far JUST FOR THIS YEAR itself such as Sejuta Impian and Sasuke Malaysia but I don't think I want to write about those stuff in my blog.

As for my exercise, I think I will involve myself with basketball, wallclimbing, and kakigym from now on. I find that the upperbody strength alone is not enough to overcome obstacles, I need stamina as well, and mind you my stamina sucks BIG TIME!

I no longer enjoy blogging as much as I used to, so I assume I won't be blogging frequently in the future. Until next time.


Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Sasuke Malaysia

It has been awhile since the last time I wrote about anything. Lately if there are something that I want to express, I simply randomly express them shortly via facebook updates. Therefore, this blog is abandoned.

Recently I decided to join "Sasuke Malaysia".... Wait.... What? You guys don't know what the hell Sasuke Malayisa is? OMG..... Can't blame you, they lack advertisement. Click THIS to enter their website.

Have you guys watched Ninja Warrior? No? If you guys haven't watch it, then I advise you guys to search for it on YouTube.

Ninja Warrior is basically a Japanese Gameshow which includes MONSTROUS obstacles that CHALLENGES the limitation of your human body in many different areas including agility, precision, strength and balance.

The game has been ongoing for many years but so far there has only been few winners and they are referred to as living legends. That alone should show how challenging this game really is. What? Still not convinced? Well, this game is very well known to an extent that it spreads WORLDWIDE!! For example, Ninja Warrior can be found in US as well. The US has been repeatedly sending winners from their region to compete for the challenge in Japan to represent their country.... So far, none has returned...... as a winner lol.

The only winners so far are the JAPANESE themselves! That's not the most "wtf" facts, the most "wtf" facts is that these Japanese backgrounds are surprisingly common and none of them reflect the capabilities that they possess! For example, some of the winners are a fisherman, fireman, and a shoeseller..... That's right, a SHOE SELLER! Guys from the US who claims to be a PROFESSIONAL in Freerunning/Parkour FAILS to overcome the Ninja Warrior's challenge in Japan, but a shoe seller in Japan succeeds.... Thats it, I conclude that the Japanese citizens are all Ninjas in disguise.

SO! What is Sasuke Malaysia!? Sasuke Malaysia is derived from Ninja Warrior itself. In other words, Sasuke Malaysia is Ninja Warrior in Malaysian version.

How cool is that? Without a doubt, I am joining the competition! Oh yeah, the winner is going to represent Malaysia to compete in Japan. And Oh yeah, the competition starts this Friday and Saturday in Putrajaya on the 27th and 28th of May 2011.

The rule is simple, you have to overcome all the extreme obstacles within the limited time. If you fall and get contact with water, you lose. Once you passed all the obstacles, you need to press the buzzer.

For Malaysia, there will be 100 participants altogether. Only 10 will advance to the final stage. Only 1 will be the winner. Only one will be given the title "JAGUH PERTAMA MALAYSIA".

The funny part of everything is that we are encouraged to wear something that represents our occupation or what we do in the beginning of the show for example aprons. working attire and etc. We also need to do something to represent our occupation or what we do for example showing a frying pan, do a backflip, etc. In other words, it is going to be funny.

The host for the show is going to be Jehan Miskin, Reem Shahwa, and Mayumi Kasuga.

I've been preparing a loser's speech just in case if I were to fall MISERABLY INTO THE WATER DURING THE FIRST STAGE....

So here is one of them:

"The weather is so hot today, so I decided to go for a swim".

Something like that I guess.

This one if for the winner's speech (that will never happen since I am not confident with the obstacles, let alone winning it):

"First of all I would like to say I have the most beautiful wonderful girlfriend in the whole wide world. Her name is Arinah Rozhan and I intend to marry her in the near future. Sorry, I already reserved her for myself, find someone else to flirt guys. About winning this competition, meh, too eassyyyyy, hohohohohoho~!"

Something like that I guess.

Here are some of the videos that you guys can take a look at to know what Sasuke Malaysia/Ninja Warrior is all about.

Here is my application video for the competition

Here are all the other applicant's videos for the competition.

Join Sasuke Malaysia on Facebook to know more. (However, by the time you guys read this, the competition will most likely be over)


Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Nyan Cat


Thursday, April 7, 2011

To those in darkness seeking for light

It takes a certain amount of evil people to convince you that the world is full of hypocrites, darkness, dangers and such... But it only requires a single person, a hero perhaps, to make you realize how beautiful the world you are living in is actually worth protecting. No matter how much your life has been corrupted before, being surrounded by kindness and innocence, you can start anew.


Tuesday, March 29, 2011


It has been awhile since the last time I acquired an inspiration to write about "something" (which explains why my posts are mostly crap since I force myself to write about anything that comes across my mind)...... Throughout my entire experience of meeting and socializing myself with new people I recently meet since I entered matriculation UIA in nilai, I learned something very valuable I myself refuse to accept previously. What is it am I referring to you ask? Well, I'll give you a friendly hint. The word is passion.

Previously, I usually make fun of people as I go. Let me share with you guys my perception of view towards certain things that we usually encounter in Malaysia. For example.

What do I see when I see dudes playing bowling? I'll tell you what I see, what I see is basically dudes who tend to exaggerate their "focus" and "seriousness" when they are playing the game. Have you ever encountered dudes who play bowling with their serious facial expression attached 24/7? This is not limited to dudes, in fact, this goes towards both male and female of all ages. Let me further describe to you about this kind of people in an attempt to help you understand what kind of people I am specifically referring to. These people usually bring their own bowling balls, bowling shoes, and even their bowling gloves to the bowling alley. Some come and play in groups and occasionally comes wearing the same uniform, some others even come and play alone. So??? What's wrong with it you ask?? Well, what irritates me is that these kind of people takes the game too seriously to an extent that there is no sign of happiness nor excitement generated by them when they play the game itself. Frequently I see these people play bowling too damn seriously!! They score a strike, they turn around and walks away like nothing happened. When WE score a strike, we turn around and we scream or provoke our friends like crazy! That is how we have fun! This people on the other hand, they bowl, they turn around and claps each other's hand with their serious facial expression and then waits for their next turn. When they get a strike or a miss, they pressure themselves like crazy. This is very sad to look at especially when they come all the way to the bowling alley to play alone. A total waste of money.

That is one of my perception of view towards stuff that we usually see in Malaysia. Second!!! What do I see when I see dudes playing football? What I see is basically dudes chasing a ball all over the field like babies chasing a butterfly. They kick the ball into the goal, and then they rejoice. When they lose or even encounter some minor foul or foul play, they fight and quarrel with one another. Those are football players, what about the spectators? Now, the real shits happen it the spectators seat, not in the football field. Spectators provoke one another like crazy and fight each other like crazy by observing the performance of those who actually plays football down there on the field as reference. Winning = Provoke | Losing = Accumulate anger. Previously, I saw these people as simple idiots who have nothing to do. I relate this people with old people who usually talks and complain about politics like crazy but towards the end are capable of doing nothing to change anything about it.

These negative perceptions I have are endless. Basically, this view of mine basically under-grades the passions of other people.

But ladies and gentlemen, one of the most important thing that I had learn in life is basically to not undermine and criticize the passion of others no matter how stupid and pointless it may appear to you. You might think that collecting stamps and coins are simply a waste of time and energy, but to others it might be their main purpose of living their lives on earth. We never know.

You see, each of us have our own passion and each of us easily gets irritated when our passion is being undermine by others, especially others who are not qualified to. I myself encounter this feeling when I see idiots out there questioning my reason of doing what I am doing which is basically parkour.

"Why are you doing this? Are you not afraid?"
"What if you fall?"
"Don't invite trouble to your parents"
"Stop doing this before its too late, once accident occurs, you can never turn back"

Shits like this, I hate the most.

You see, each and every one of us have our own stand in protecting our passion. Without passion, fabulous + marvelous + fantastic + amazing + spectacular + etc things in life would not have come into existence like we see around us today.

Let me show you how STUPID it actually is to undermine the passion of others.

Painters/Artist = What a waste of time, just take a picture idiot.

Photographers = Why waste so much time on taking a picture of something we can simply see in front of our eyes? What a waste of money on expensive cameras.

Golf = Why waste so much money on hitting a ball?

Basketball = Why waste so much energy on dunking a ball in a ring?

Why this? Why that? Why bla bla bla bla..... Stop with this pessimistic + narrowed view in life. We never experience, we never know. If one does not know anything, one should simply shut their mouth. Respect others in a way that you want to be respected.

Previously I have this negative perspective in life, but now everything has changed. I tried putting my self in other people's shoes. I tried playing football, I tried being a spectator.... Guess what? It is highly exciting and fun. When you play football, the sensation you get when you score a goal is highly satisfying. It almost feels like you managed to take a poop after holding it in for an entire month, lol. As far as being a spectator is concerned, like I said folks, the real shits happen in the the spectators' seat, not in the field. The intense sensation you feel when you observe feels 2x better compared to actually playing the sport itself. Plus, it is better since all you do is basically sit and relax aside from complaining in the process, lol.

(As far as bowling is concerned, I have tried playing it but I still don't get why people have to be a party pooper by being overly damn serious about it)

Passion is a powerful tool in a life, passion alone is capable of giving meaning and utmost dedication to a person's life. Respect is the pick lock, understanding is the key.


Friday, March 25, 2011

Hana Tajima

So, I was browsing through facebook like I usually do each time I have access to the internet... Then I suddenly came across a very simple status update posted by a friend of mine... The status update is "Hana Tajima"... That's it.

Hana Tajima? What is "it"? Who is "it"? So I decided to randomly pause for awhile and think to myself... What could this name possibly mean? At first I thought that it could it be a new name for a new pornstar my friend was currently addicted to. But then again I thought to myself that it would be terribly dumb for a person to publicly state that kind of personal interest in facebook. Hmm....

Suddenly, a random friend of mine standing beside me saw the status update as well and asked the same question. More specifically, the question goes like this:-

In English - "Hana Tajima? Who the hell is this chick!? Many of my friends are currently idolizing her like crazy, but I myself have no idea how she looks like and who she actually is"

In Malay Baku "Hana Tajima? Siapakah gadis tersebut? Terdapat ramai sahabat saya yang menyebut-nyebut nama beliau berulang kali. Tetapi siapakah gerangannye beliau aku tidak ketahui"

In Malay Pasar - "Hana Tajima? Sape sial minah nie!? Sume member aku tetiba batak lak ngn minah nie. Sape minah aku pun x taw"

In Malay Gedik Version - "Hana Tajima? Sapewww diyew nieee? Semuwee kwn kitew sukew diyew tetibew. Sapew diyew pun kitew x taw, tehee~!

It turns out that she is a chick that promotes how to properly wear tudung in style. Seeing that she is practically attractive in the eyes of normal people, she is currently being idolized like crazy. I don't see why only now people are noticing how beautiful girls actually are when they are covering their "aurat". They only find it beautiful when a person they perceive as beautiful are wearing 'em. Tsk tsk~ I on the other hand find girls more attractive when they cover themselves instead of revealing themselves, true story.

The reason being why I post about Hana Tajima is not because to explain who she is. The reason I wanted to blog about her is because I decided to google for her to know who she actually is and why everyone seems to know her.

THEN! I noticed a picture of her. The caption of the picture:-

In English - "Whoever who does not know who Hana Tajima is, that is UTTERLY PREPOSTEROUS!!!"

In Malay Baku - "Sesungguhnya siapa yang tidak mengenali Hana Tajima, sesungguhnya itu SANGAT MELAMPAU!!!!"

In Malay Pasar - "Sape x kenal Hana Tajima mmg MELAMPAU!!!"

In Malay Gedik - "Sapew x kenal Hana Tajima mmg MELAMPAWW GILEWW BABEWWW TAHAP NK KENEW GEGET JEWWW~!! ISK!! ISK!!!"


.........Sorrrrryyy!!!!! I am so outdated that I do not know who she is previously in my entire life!! Oh nooo~ How could I ever be forgiven for my utterly preposterous behavior!!

Tsk tsk, there should be a limitation to how much a person should idolize another. By idolizing others and expecting everyone to know everything about them as if the information about them is basic knowledge, now that is preposterous.

By the way, it is nice to see another chick supporting beauty through covering their aurah. I am sick and tired of seeing youngsters nowadays speaking in Melayu Gedik version and revealing themselves as well as acting in a cheap + bitchy way with other male dudes who simply and ultimately wants to get into their pants.

Oh yeah, you can see 3 pictures and a video Hana Tajima in this post to learn a bit about her yourself. Do browse for her to learn more.
*Personally addition on my view towards her

I find it weird but there seems to be a major difference of beauty between two different facial expression that she shows. Which is the neutral face, and the face with her smile. Lets just say that when she smiles and when she doesn't, its almost like two different person.

Smiling - 20% attractive
Not Smiling like the pictures above - 80% attractive

Of course this is simply my point of view.

There are haters out there stating that she would be the downfall for female muslims out there. But seriously, in what way does that apply? As long as the aurah is preserved and no sexual arousal can be be obviously detected from the dressing style then by all means, it should be fine.

At least from her effort, girls can at least throw their negative perception on how wearing scarf on their head is not attractive (school kids usually throw away their head scarf nowadays). By increasing the rate of other peoples' desire to wear the headscarf, at least that is the very first step of improving their self in covering their aurah.

Seriously, the reason why some women find it hard to return to the path of Islam is not because that they do not want to, but its because they find it hard to start covering themselves with the headscarf everyday seeing that they are already used to not wearing em in the first place.

Some people are too damn pessimistic and narrow-minded to an extent that all they see in front of their eyes are the areas of negativity. Stop being a couch-potato who simply sits behind and complains a lot while doing nothing to improve anything. I'm not saying that you should do something to change anything, I am simply asking you to shut up instead. :D